When I started this project I wasn’t sure about the direction I wanted it to head. I had just came out of one of the worst periods in my life, and I was still feeling miserable.

In 2018, I lost one of my best friends, and that moment changed the entire trajectory of my life. 3 years later, I felt like I wanted to join him, and turned to music. That feeling of bleakness and desolation is something I’ve sought to capture since the beginning. I know I am not alone in my feelings, and tens of people have confided in me how they relate to this dismal feeling. Everyone searches for belonging, but few ever find it.

As I put together the puzzle pieces of music, writing and the arts, this hole never seemed to fill. It always came back with a greater vengeance. I kept fighting, but no matter what it seemed like defeat was the inevitability. I used every method I had: reading, meditation, cold exposure, music, writing, videography, exploring, climbing. I searched across my soul trying to figure out what was wrong with me.

Risking everything because I already lost it all; Mara has won since the beginning. Your choice lies, in the hands of Raga or the future.

AM/WAS